Meditations on Job Searching

Finding the temptation as I search for jobs online, to place hope in the great "mystery".. that there is just this magic job awaiting me somewhere out there.. there HAS to be right? There are so many jobs out there..

So much of this thinking is false. God's grace abounds, Father Your grace! Our hope is NOT in "fate" or "chance" or "luck".. somehow we've learned this by seeing "life" come to us apart from our own doing. God is telling us the truth!, that it is HE that gives us our life, that RAINS on the JUST AND the unjust, that holds ALL things together in the smallest part, it is CHRIST, the Word. HE is our Shepherd, providing, protecting. Father let me trust YOU for a job, a career, EVERYTHING.

So many thoughts.. on how wisdom and God's law are to be desired above gold / income.. about how we can and WILL REJOICE in the Lord!, though there be NO fruit on the vine, no herd in the stalls.. yet we will take JOY in the God of our salvation.. saving us from us, the world, Satan, and His own righteous wrath toward my self-will and pride, keeping me from trusting in the Way, Truth and Life. Oh He is righteous to judge. Lord, to SEE, to walk in the Light! With You, taking me by Your right hand.

Thinking about how Adam and Eve were told at the very beginning to fill and subdue the earth.. God saw that there was no one to till the ground.. He placed Adam in the garden of Eden to work the land. Father THIS is us, this is how You created us, to work. To subdue Your creation, to fulfill our made-in-God's-image design and DESIRE to CREATE and ORDER, to feel accomplished, to PROVIDE for, to take satisfaction in, to WRESTLE and strive with, to be reminded of our wretched independence and rebellion and the reason we need to be saved. And Your mercy, Your grace which abounds all the more as sin abounded, Your garments of flesh which cover our shame, Your righteousness.. this all by wiping sweat from our brow.. coming home exhausted after a hard day, fighting the mid-day lull, looking at the clock.. Father the blessing is by Your love and the CURSE is by Your love. Father, please, for a son who seeks Your righteousness, only by Your grace, lead me in the way I should go. Let me delight in You that You may PLANT in my heart the DESIRE I should have, for work, for everything.